Kristin

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 20:19:19 GMT

"If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you."

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 03:28:36 GMT

so i have a bit of a problem. im still in love with one guy and i have strong feelings for another but im tired of the games im clearly not cut out for it. whats the point in it really ya sure i guess it can be entertaining to fuck with peoples feelings but whatever happened to coming out and saying exactly how you feel ( i did that already) and actually meaning what you say ( and i do) i recently poured my heart out to the guy im still in love with and after the last week or so ive come to the conclusion that that night meant nothing to him and he clearly doesnt feel the same way. not like i havent lost him before i guess i just got that taste of what could be and it hurts ten times worse.the worst part is he could call me right now and say kristin i want to be with you and id be with him at the drop of a hat i guess he just chooses not to see that. the guy i have strong feelings for has decided to say one thing and act a completely different way. fyi im not mentioning names because i know that some of you dont necessary like who im talking about and well if you really know me you know who im talking about anyways. anyways one minute he needs to be alone to figure out what he wants in life than the next he wants to move out to st.augustine to be closer to me. im really just tired of getting my hopes up and always being let down. expect nothing and you will never be disappointed.

and not that you care to hear more but im over st.augustine. it isnt where i want to be at all. jacksonville is where i belong. i fuckin miss my best friend better known as my other half. the drama is getting really lame and the more i think about it shes the only one who has always been there and it sucks that im out here and we barely talk or hang. i feel like im losing her friendship and theres nothing i can really do about it. im over school im over this town im over it all!

i really dont expect any of you to care or to even read this far i just needed to get it out theres much more and i dont have the patience for it

goodnight!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 01:15:35 GMT

so i went to school for 4th and 5th
than i went to spend some time with amanda before she leaves tomorrow
i had so much fun
i got to spend time with amanda
and i got to see josmarie
im really going to miss you amanda
i love you both sooo much
of course we took pics

we straight gangsta!

my eyes are always closed!

blurry but still cute!

i love this picture! she is so adorable!

brody!

i love this girl!

exactly!

we both look so mad lol

i love these girls sooo much!

amanda as she clings to josmarie while josmarie crys amanda dont go!

it really looks like shes grabbing my boob but she isnt...

up close and personal

those two= adorable!

i had so much fun! im really going to miss you amanda and i wish we would have hung more but as long as your happy im happy... i love you! i love you as well other half and im really glad we got a chance to hang i missed you!

ps: i really wanted to see you tonight... i feel like ive put the effort out there you know how i feel and you just dont seem to care and that hurts

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 18:49:45 GMT

random facts about me enjoy

1. my middle name is Nicole

2. i love to dance

3. i love watching chick flicks

4. i used to play soccer

5. i wish i didnt care about what people think

6. i miss the way things used to be

7. i laugh to hide the pain

8. i trust people way to easily

9. im sick of being walked all over

10. i tend to leave before i get left

11. Josmarie Marchanny is my best friend

12. i hate two faced people

13. i look like my dad or so everyone says

14.i want to loose 10 pounds

15. i wish i could just let loose

16. i keep my guard up

17. i miss old friends

18. im addicted to gilmore girls and one tree hill

19. im freakishly tall and i hate it

20. i hate sterotypes

21. hospitals freak me out

22. im a procrastinator

23. i dont want to look back and wonder "what if"

24. im terrified of the future

25. my favorite bands are the postal service and the used

26. i love walking on the beach

27. i like watching the sunset

28. i admit it i listen to britney spears and christina aguliera

29. i wish i wasnt afraid to take chances

30. sleeping beauty is my favorite disney movie

31. when i was little i used to pretend i was sleeping beauty waiting for her prince

32. i like going to the movies

33. im afraid of being alone

34. i love taking random trips to target

35. my favorite color is red

36. i cry when im upset and or frustrated

37. i tend to hold in my feelings

38. i love all night phone conversations especially the ones where you fall asleep on the phone

39. i hate that i compare every guy to him

40. dancing is my escape

41. i can resite almost every line from the movie the pest

42. i miss the butterfly feeling in my stomach

43. i miss the way he made me feel

44. im proud to be an American

45. i wish i was closer to my family

46. i want to make my family proud

47. im afraid of heights

48. im addicted to lifetime movie network

49. im stubborn as hell

50. i love going to hockey games with my dad is a form of bonding

51. i want to travel and see the world

52. i love accents

53. i want to be me and not be ridiculed for it

54. i had braces when i was younger

55. when im really upset i write

56. i like reading random quotes

57. im trying to be more upfront with people

58. when a song i like comes on the radio i will not hesitate to turn the music up and sing along maybe even rock out

59. im an insecure person

60. i dont like it when my friends date my exes

61. i hate that im not on good terms with any of my exes

62. when something good comes my way i tend to screw it up

63. i hate friends with benefits... someone always gets hurt

64. i hate pretending im ok

65. im tired of being alone

66. sometimes i wish i could fly away

67. i dont handle death very well

68. i read into everything

69. i dont open up easily in fear of being hurt

70. i love the christmas season

71. i love having someone to keep me warm during winter

72. i get jealous easily over stupid things

73. i love being told im beautiful... because i dont hear it often

74. i like to cuddle

75. i do indeed like country music yes yes i do

76. im a florida gator fan if your not i wont hold it against you

77. i get frustrated when people question my morals

78. i want to be famous

79. i tend to push my political views on others

80. i love taco bell

81. i hate how people beat around the bush just come out and say it

82. i wish i was nicer to people

83. i hate people who toss around "i love you" like its nothing

84. im addicted to pepsi

85. i always have my friends back no matter what

86. when i get nervous i giggle

87. i tend to always think the worst

88. trust and honesty are very important to me in friendship and or relationship once you brake my trust its hard to get it back

89. i love all the scream movies i think they are funny as anything

90. it takes me an hour tops to get ready in the morning

lastly id like you to answer a question for me. what do you do when the guy you love is in love with someone else? yes im still in love with him and it didnt hit me until friday night when i got to spend time with him and although he doesnt believe it if i could have i probably would have stayed.i didnt realize how much i missed him until friday night and well they say the best things are worth fighting for and something in my gut is telling me not to give up this time.

i blame this on josmarie

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 01:31:19 GMT

josmarie marchanny

i miss this girl and our friendship so much. our conversation last night was very much needed and made me feel so much better. i love you other half always and forever!

jessica higgins

haha this child cracks me up. and i didnt realize how much i cherished our friendship until i moved. i love this girl so much and i dont know what id do without her.

lauren!

my babys momma! your the only one i can carry out a political discussion with and not get frustrated. your always without a doubt there for me. i love you sugarmomma!

kirra

my gangsta! where would i be without your late night phone calls discussing boys.id be lost without our endless trips to best buy and starbucks. you keep me grounded. love ya kid

kelley!

my sugardaddy! i have to say your friendship might be missed the most. you were there with me through some of the hardest times in my life and it saddens me that we arent really tight anymore.we can go from gangster to country in 2.5 seconds. you and me we crazy and laid back at the same time. you probably understood me the best. no matter what girl im always here

i know no matter what i can count on you guys. you mean the world to me and i love you all

ya it had to be said. life is well going. i have a bad case of senioritis. im ready to walk across that stage have them had me my diploma and be out of here. im over st.augustine. i have my mind set im leaving st.augustine once i graduate im debating options. id love to be able to go down to gainsville and go to santa fe and than eventually transfer into uf once i get my gpa up but in order to do that i have to have an apartment down there and that requires money kristin doesnt have unless of course i work my ass off over the summer and save up before the fall semester starts which is for sure an option. than theres melbourne i love it down there its so gorgeous i could go to community college down there and live with my aunt and uncle which would be awesome because my aunt and i get along great and id get to spend more time with my cousins. than i even thought about georgia. jessica lives up there and if i have the money maybe she might let me crash with her while i go to community college up there. its frustratin because i know i dont want to get stuck here and not experience life away from home. i got plenty of time i suppose to debate what i want to do im just ready to be out.this week has gone by so slow. labor day weekend was a total bummer work sucked and sunday night my dog mackie died. 14yrs old ive had him forever. i loved that dog despite what i said sometimes. rip "lil man" i love you. well ive procrastinated long enough i gotta hit the books. thats all for now

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:33:49 GMT

i just want out! i want out of this damn place and i dont mean just this house i mean jacksonville. there is a big world outside of jacksonville and its screaming my name... school work and this house are driving me insane... im tired of friends that say they are always there for me but are never really there... i dont like being surrounded by this negativity i dont want or need to be around it especially when im tryin to get my act together graduate and make somethin of myself. i just want out of this town!

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 05:15:28 GMT

i cant believe school starts in a couple weeks im so excited i got my senior pictures taken yesterday and it finally hit me im a senior ah im so excited on another note i broke up with john god hes perfect and ill probably be kickin myself later but somethin just wasnt right so i ended it work is getting better i found out im makin a lot more than i thought so im lookin forward to my paycheck its going to be pretty sweet right now im just tryin to enjoy whats left of my summer need to hang with certain people cough cough jenni thats code for call me woman

lauren, josmarie, me and kirra on my birthday

my cousin lauren i love this kid shes adorable

result of my boredom

all great things must come to an end...

god im gonna miss him

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 11:18:21 GMT

im up kinda early so i figured it was time to update... my 4th july didnt turn out how i planned but jon took me to see war of the worlds than we picked up zach and matt hit up the beach to see the fireworks but it was raining so we decided against it so overall my 4th of july didnt turn out to bad work is getting frustrating but im off tomorrow only because i have to go get my senior pictures taken but hey its time off cant complain you gotta give me props im only a hostess and im getting tips for lookin cute not a bad way to earn a living if i do say so myself lets see things with john are going pretty good havent had any problems so far lets hope it continues that way but ya i gotta finish gettin ready for work... love peace and chicken grease

i got bored and i got a digital camera for my birthday

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 03:54:12 GMT

so went up to six pockets tonight with everyone tuned out the drama somewhat for the most part it was enjoyable take a look for yourself

how hot are we...

me and john

well kids im off to bed i have to be to work at 7 am...

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 03:11:17 GMT

i got the job i start saturday and im so flippin excited right now im waitin for john to get off work i hate waiting lol i want to talk to him now i dont know that i can wait another two hours it seems like forever i just hope i can stay awake till than

i just want to get your fuckin voice out of my head!

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 20:58:08 GMT

so this guy is great hes everthing you werent so why is it i still want you!

to lay here under you is all i could ever do

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 04:35:32 GMT

P.R.O.M

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 03:38:02 GMT

prom was fucking fantastic... everything came together perfectly i was very happy with my hair and makeup the whole evening was awesome... kira looked amazing her dress was gorgeous...we danced the second we got in the door until the end of the night i didnt hold back at all we just went crazy on the dance floor we even had a couple of guys come up to me kira and lauren saying they just had to come meet us cause we looked like we were having so much fun... i even think i got HIS attention and he looked Fine with his pimp hat and all its official ive fallen for this kid and ive fallen hard i absouletly i have no regrets i just wish it didnt have to end...

theres more if you can believe it i just dont feel like downloading them right now

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 23:27:20 GMT

this is for you...

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love yous
Thats what Id do, with one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 00:08:35 GMT

i made a new lj... ki11m3softly...
friends only so comment to be added

ThAnKs AmAnDa!!!!!!!

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 21:12:43 GMT

thank you amanda for puttin the pics in my lj im just to retarded to do all that... now i just need a picture of you and me to put on here so due to the weather i dont have to work today im so happy well not much else to say just wanted to say thanks to amanda for puttin the pics in my lj... MuCh LoVe!!!

BaCk To ScHoOl

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 20:53:53 GMT

well school wasnt to bad but i do miss sandalwood though last year first period i had mishaya stephen and albert in my class i miss our table discussions and second period jennifer was in my class freshman and sophmore year we had english together than third period ryan jenni darious and rachelle were in there than the only reason i went to fourth was cause shanes fine ass was in that class fifth period i helped mrs.cobb and hung with nikki lol than sixth period anthony was there so all i did was laugh and i had my lunch buddies josmarie lauren and kelly lol i miss you all... i do have to say that nease has some fine lookin boyz though there is this one guy in my american history class that sits in front of me that is oh so beautiful lol so im lookin forward to that class... my unified arts class is my favorite its a study of films and we watch a bunch of movies some new some old some black and white today we watched singin in the rain which was nothin new to me lol i have it and its a great movie bein in that class made me think of dawsons creek and how dawson is obsessed with film but anyway i gotta work tomorrow 11 to 6:30 and im not to happy about that ahh well ima BoUnCe... MuCh LoVe!!!

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 23:08:26 GMT

well last night was pretty interesting mike came over... i miss hangin with him... but ya anywho today i went out to lunch with my mom and my grandparents and than i went and got my hair cut and i dyed it again... i should hopefully have a pic up soon... than i went and saw josmarie we hung long enough to take some pictures and than i had to leave.my mom and i went and got a pedicure went to publix and now im here lol what a day huh... tomorrow is school how exciting im gonna try to look at this in a positive way in the sense that i get to start over no drama and all that well words are low so ima BoUnCe...
MuCh LoVe!!!

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 23:55:08 GMT

well work went by slow but when craig left it was just me heather and justin... we had fun though justin kept makin fun of the way i laugh sometimes when i laugh i snort... i know i know not attractive sometimes i laugh like a hyena to justin got a kick out of that we both fell on the floor we were laughin so hard... anthony you know my laugh lmao... heather and i wore rainboots around the store which was pretty fun i tried to do a kart wheel but it wasnt pretty... heather almost knocked over a display lmao funny stuff... justin wants me to get him a boyfriend lol so if any of my guy friends has recently discovered their gay let me know i might be able to hook ya up well ima BoUnCe for now... MuCh LoVe!!!

WhAt GuYs WaNt GiRlS tO KnoW

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 03:18:37 GMT

i thought this was to cute... my sister sent it to me its intitled what guys want girls to know... EnJoY!!!
>1. We're not as perverted as you think we all are.

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>2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend IS a LOSER.

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>3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.

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>4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful.......

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>5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes around comes around.

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>6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out

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>7. Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us.

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>8. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's

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>9. If you really liked us for us, you would let us think that our

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>10. We never shave our legs. So get over it.

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>11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup on us. It's just wrong....

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>12. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell

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>13. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.

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>14. We absolutely do not care about the Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98

>Degrees, or what any other guy looks like for that matter.

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>15. We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at

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>16. Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you

>Don't have to apologize when you do something "wrong."

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>17. You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would

>Be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know

>That you love us.

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>18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to help us make the plans

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>19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, cause you might get

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>20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see what we would say."

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>21. Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh

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>22. Pamela Anderson's boobs aren't fake anymore, but we like yours

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>23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a

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>24. PMS is not an excuse.

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>25. If you want us to put the seat down when we're done, you should

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>26. Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't turn

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>27. And always remember: The way to a guys heart is through his

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>28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with

>your friends, but to us it's just wrong.

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>29. We always notice how funny it is after your rip out our heart,

>Stick it down our throat and still want to be friends.

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>30. And last but not least: We know you're not always right, but

>We'll pretend like you are anyway.

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 23:25:05 GMT

my orientation was canceled because a tornado went through the back of the school pretty interesting huh

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 19:53:08 GMT

last night was so funny after i got off work nicole and i went to wendys and than we went up to shell so she could get gas she didnt want to go in and pay because she was in her pjs so of course i had to go in and there were like 3 trucks full of bubas makin nasty comments of course i just tuned em out but nicole almost went after them with pepper spray pretty funny actually.... today didnt start off to well i woke up late but thank god i got to work on time... i found out the store gossip though... to understand you gotta know who i work with i work with craig,tonya,justin,heather and gene... gene and heather are dating cute couple by the way... justin is gay and has a crush on gene pretty interesting dont ya think lol.... when hes around heather he constantly talks about gene which pisses her off gene is just pretty much creeped out by it lol who wouldnt be so i guess its pretty safe to say no one really likes justin... so my doctors appointment went well they said it was just a cold and it would eventually go away but i have to take allegra for my sinus's i have eye drops i have to use for a week than i have to take this really gross cough sryup not fun at all hopefully it will be gone soon... i have orientation at Nease tonight i cant believe school starts friday but at least with school starting my work hours will go down lol well not much else to say so ima BoUnCe... MuCH LoVe!!!

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 16:50:35 GMT

well hello my people im updating really quick cause shortly i have to leave to go to the doctor it seems my cold has gotten worse but anyway work went pretty good yesterday with the exception that i had to help close and closing sucks no fun at all lol and i gotta do it again tonight...another thing i have come to find is you wouldnt believe how many people steal shoes... i think we had 3 pairs stolen yesterday they either wear them out the store or some people put them in strollers unbelievable how many shoes are stolen well not much else to say so ima BoUnCe for now... MuCh LoVe!!!

My FiRsT dAy

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 22:38:57 GMT

today was my first day of work and it didnt go to bad i only worked four hours which wasnt to bad its kinda boring after like the first 30 minutes but i guess every job is like that so if anyone wants to come visit me please do st.augustine outlet mall the one thats on the right the outside one come to the shoe store come visit me i might pretend like i dont know ya at first cause i dont want to get in trouble but once you start walkin around ill come say hey lol... im excited i dont have to get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow i work from 2 to 7 and than monday 5 to 10 i gotta close how exciting lol yah right... after i got off work nicole and i went to target lol we spent like two hours in there i think we walked around in sunglasses we got some pretty wierd looks but it was still fun we ended up buyin a shit load of cds i got postal service im so excited i couldnt find it anywhere i should have known to look at target lmao... because im so excited i got the cd im writing the lyrics to my favorite song...

Nothing Better

Will someone please call a surgeon who can
crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting for better company
i can't accept that its over. i will block the door
like a goalie tending the net in the thrid quarter
of a tied-game rivalry

so just say how to make it right
and i swear ill do my best to comply

tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

i feel i must interject here, you're getting carried
away feeling sorry for yourself with these
revisions and gaps in history
so let me help you remember i've mad charts
and graphs that should finally make it clear
i've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

so please back away and let me go
i can't my darling i love you so...

tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

i admit that i have made mistakes and i swear ill never wrong you again
you've got a lure i can't deny, but you've had your chance so say goodbye

so ya anyway thats my favortie song on their cd but im gonna BoUnCe cause we are going to watch thirteen and like around 10:30 ashley is coming over... MuCh LoVe!!!

I gOt ThIs OnE iN aN EmAiL

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 18:41:40 GMT

1. What time do you get up? Depends, but usually around 9

2. If you could eat lunch with one person, who would it be? umm Chad Murray cause hes so damn fine

3. Gold or silver? Silver

4. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Sleepover lol

5. Favorite TV show? One Tree Hill and Friends

6. What do you have for breakfast? i dont usually eat breakfast

7. What/who inspires you? my family

8. What is your middle name? Nicole

9. Beach, City or Country? thats a tough one cause i love the city and the beach

10. Favorite ice cream? Chocolate

11. Butter, plain or salted popcorn? Butter or Kettle Corn

12. Favorite color? i have four lol Blue, Orange, Red, and Black
13. What kind of car do you drive? lmao a pontiac

14. Favorite sandwich? Turkey

15. What characteristic do you despise? snobbiness

16. Favorite flower? Tulip

17. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? theres a lot of places but Paris

18. What color is your bathroom? white ya i know boring give me a break we just moved in not to long ago

19. Favorite brand of clothing. L.E.I

20. Where would you like to retire? depends thats a long time from now
21. Favorite day of the week? Friday

22. What did you do for your last birthday? got a hotel room at the beach for a couple days

23. Where were you born Jacksonville, Florida

24. Favorite sport to watch? Hockey and Soccer

25. Are you a morning or Night person? Night

26. Do you have any pets? lol 2 dogs and 2 cats

i got bored again so now you know more about me